User blog:WendigoLamet/Was this Love

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    Breathe, 

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You’re alright 

You’re okay 

She’s here 

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;">'''<span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“The decision has already been made just not the method of death.” a toothy grin rested on the man’s face as bangs covered most of his eyes, “But then again I knew this was coming so I prepared the perfect way for you to atone.” Her hands were bruised and calloused from long weeks in the prison and her knees covered in dried blood from scrapes and wounds from the guards. One black eye and her clothes were tattered to her knee. The expensive ripped linen must’ve been sold. To think that someone she knew so well would end up being so cruel in her life. Did she know things he didn’t. Yes, she particularly did. '''

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;">'''<span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Here she was, the high and mighty Lioness, Princess of the Golden Empire, a murderer, a conspiracist, a plotter, a rebel. All the people wanted and needed her to be….For it was her destiny? The sun beat down upon her and the chains tugged at her wrists. Sekhmet was being led to her death bed just like he had promised. The familiar parental figure. Well what kind of father was he sending his own daughter to death. Maybe he was right. These guards annoyed her to the point where walking was even hard because of how hard they were pulling on the chains on her wrists. Behind her were other people and they were everyday criminals. She really had become this low. Reiling by memories might help...we have a while to go. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;">'''<span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: italic; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“Sekhmet, listen to mama okay? I’m not going to be around for much longer.” A soft hand grasped at her light tanned skin desperately. It was a feeling all too familiar. “Mama wants you to close your eyes and just stick this in her mouth okay? Just a little poke. Mama isn’t feeling so well.” The four year old’s big blue eyes gazed in wonder at the jeweled instrument before her. She remembered a faint conversation with screams from the priests and shouts from her mother back. ‘Something about...if Mama dies then I will be okay and some curse thing will be broken’ Sekhmet just wanted to help her mother. That’s all she wanted as the woman lied down. The four year old sat on the bed hovering over her as the woman’s eyes were full of reluctant gazes. She obviously didn’t want to die..It’d be so painful for her to go like this. “Mama can we play after this?” The woman nodded her running a hand through the girl’s hair, “Y-Yeah….” Was this love? '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;">'''<span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">“So that’s what happened to her huh?” She never really thought about it, but then it hit her. Her mother asked her to stab her for some ritual that the priests had been convincing her she needed to do. Those priests were obsessed with making Sekhmet pure again, but when the nanny found Sekhmet cluelessly poking her mother with a big stab wound in the stomach instead it was obvious what happened. Either way she completed the priest’s wishes even if her mother was so reluctant about it. Was that love? Isn't she going to get a brother? Something about….with child, but it didn’t matter now. '''

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<p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;">'''<span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Again her mind raced and tears cleaned a path of clean skin from her bruised and dusty cheeks. Blonde strands of hair fell in front of her face as they got closer and closer again. She wouldn’t be able to fulfill that promise anymore. It was all her fault for not killing him in that moment. The hesitation was her weakness. If she could kill Amon then of course she could get rid of her dad. She knew things he didn’t. Just like how her mother never told him and would feed things to her. If she needed to talk she’d just rant to Sekhmet because what’s a little kid gonna do? Remember it? Funny. Hahaha. '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;">'''<span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: italic; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">A sting across her cheek and the thud on the ground made it even more clear what the response to her question was. What was wrong with a simple question? She was 10 wondering a thing from her father. All she asked was if her mother really was the woman he wanted to marry. There was that white haired woman she despised in the corner. Sekhmet always called her Auntie Ipwie, but ever since Amon came along it wasn’t the same. She scowled at him and her cursing out something and running off. It was the first time she had that kind of contact with her dad. Was this love? '''

<p dir="ltr" style="line-height: 1.38; margin-top: 0pt; margin-bottom: 0pt;">'''<span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0); background-color: transparent; font-weight: 400; font-style: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-position: normal; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Love was a botched word to her. She stood before the crowd seeing the common criminals beheaded until they forced her past walking to a small cliff. She saw the reptilian tales of those monsters wriggling beneath the water. They were probably salivating at the thought of fresh meat. “Any last words?” the guard turned to the 20 year old nudging her closer so maybe she would trip. All she opened her mouth to say was, “ ‘Ana...mustaedium. (I am ready) I wish to receive my punishment, but my last words are this. “There was a long pause before she walked herself over the edge still attached onto her chains. '''

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