Thread:BUCKHØØD/@comment-28770775-20170126210705

I'm sorry,

Blake, I am really sorry. I'm apologizing to you because of how I acted the past several days, I feel like I was acting very selfish to you. Although, I want you to be happy wherever you go, I just wanted to be happy with you. That's why I was getting so upset and frustrated that I began speaking my mind rudely towards you. I felt rejected, discarded, like you didn't care about me.

I wanted to be happy with you Blake because I care about you. Everyday when I'm at school, I think about you for a good several minutes. When I get off the bus from school I think "Screw homework, gotta talk with Blake ;)." Today, I just couldn't get you off my mind. You were on it 24/7. I care about you a lot, a whole lot, that's why whenever you're talking to another girl that's really close with you I get a bit jealous. I feel really sorry for Rowan, I feel like it's my fault that we're not a three-way squad anymore. I feel like it's my fault that I always leave her out in almost anything we do together. I'm going to apologize to her, or just send her a link this thread because I feel terrible for the way I've treated her.

Why do I care about you so fricken' much? You are just one of the only people I could share 99% of my feelings to. To some of my other close IRL friends and wiki friends, I cannot do that. You are someone that really understands me, and I appreciate that about you. I try to comprehend everything you say to me the best I can when you talk to me, because you'd do the same for me.

Sharing my feelings with you isn't the only reason why I care about you so much, but we have just been through so much together that makes me not want to loose you. We've been through plenty of arguments but finally came to a conclusion with those arguments as they turned to agreements. We've been through people that have turned on us, while we stayed as close friends.

Also Blake, we have so much in common! We came to this wiki for the same reason, Warrior Cats roleplay on Animal Jam. We met from someone that we were both very good friends with on Animal Jam. Our friendship grew closer as we learned more and more about eachother.

I guess what I'm saying Blake, is that you mean a lot to me. Without you, it wouldn't be the same. I wouldn't be here if it were for you, I would've been long gone. I'm sorry if I was rude. I'm sorry if I was selfish. I'm sorry if I cared. I guess it's finally time that I admit that I love you, Blake.

-Maddie 