Thread:Penny1256/@comment-28578706-20161228223901/@comment-28634206-20161228224427

Hushuzu wrote: Hey, penny.

I'm not making this to make you upset or mad at me and I think it's great for you to have joined ShadowClan with us. Despite you may not even know I'm in the clan. I don't stalk many message walls but when I get bored I have....And I'm sorry for the whole Bow and Micheal thing...I didn't know...And I guess you can say it was my fault but there was really no need to lash out about it. Not meaning to be all up in your businuess...But....Here is just something that probably makes me upset the most....Yes roleplay is fun with bits of romance but not when your come into a roleplay and just ask for a guy who is free, I'm not trying to change you in any shape or form its just a thought to take in.

Trust me this may sound offensive on many levels because I'm REALLY bad at explaining my emotions....But, I thought I'd give it a try and let you know more about me.

I personally don't like my characters or anyones characters being called dibs on for someone as it changes for the character should act originally. Where he/she will have to make the character more drawn towards that key person who called dibs. I mean if you and the other role-player agree to it then yes it's alright but coming into a role-play and asking for a free/open guys I find kind of odd...In my mind...

Your close with Adi. So, am I. I stalk his message wall.

I see things.

I may read things wrong. My apologies. But....

I'm in a current relationship with him...and I'm not telling you to stop being friends...I'm just....

I don't know...

I've been starting to feel distant with so many people in my life...I come on here to escape the real world....

I use to cut and I thought my life was a complete nothing I joined Swim and I wanted to try Hockey because my dad played it but I'm not allowed.

I don't know

I just.

I needed you to know how I felt....

Can...or...Are we still friends after this.....

I feel like a jerk... Of course we still are friends Hushuzu

Dont beat yourself up

I know what's its like to feel distant from people

I used to cut myself as well because I was so depressed

I didn't know who I was

Who I would become

Or who I was before

I honestly am terrible at explaining my feelings as well

I honestly didn't know how to explain my feelings when my Great Aunt died

Everyone was so depressed but I didn't know how to feel

Trust me you are way closer to Adimar then I am

I understand that you didn't know about the whole Bow thing and if you want I will stop calling dibs on OC's

I just dont want people to be sad because of me....

Usually people are sad because of me anyway...