Thread:Hushuzu/@comment-28578706-20180724030041/@comment-28578706-20180724051155

Sometimes by friends like to tell me I'm insane, but I don't know why. Yeah, maybe I can be a little weird sometimes and that little can go past the boundaries and be really strange but...I don't know, some people say its because I just lose it at times and how I have this paranoia, but at the end of each day its the same- pain, the fear that bothers me so much that when i restrain myself from harming anything including myself, it drives me more mad. Its at that point, where I'm called insane because of the emotion I'm holding back to save myself from harm, it just gathers up and leaves me kicking around in my sheets and gripping my phone tighter until--

nothing, its just a blank stare and a empty feeling. Like I no longer feel anything...Its at this moment I feel like I need to do something, so I draw but when my inspiration dries out...I go deeper into the void where I no longer know anything except the stubbornness of denying every little bit of advice from my friends because I just don't feel like reading the messages they send to remind me, I have feelings.