Thread:Adimar- Co Alpha/@comment-28578706-20170103031413/@comment-28578706-20170104022805

Okay, so where do I begin...? I've been having this empty feelings and just that lost feelings, that's just how I am at school I have no emotions for school or towards school and It puts me in this type of Lost feeling, which I know sounds weird. I do suffer from Major Depression and Anxiety Disorders which I have to say make my life really hard...One of my guy friends Called me and we were having a normal conversation of school and then he said I did something wrong

Of course I thought he was joking and then I found out he wasn't and he was yelling at me and I was crying and I was home alone unable to have someone to help me control myself. So where I grabbed a knife but I'm scared of pain which is an odd fear I know and I put the knife back down, sigh of relief moment until he kept yelling at me

These are when I beat myself up hitting the wall because I feel the need to punish myself when I do something wrong like I have to correct my life to fit everyone's. I'm telling you this because these are my thoughts at the moment which yes is dark and I'm sick and your sick, when I'm sick it really looks like I'm dying

Anyway, I get on this site and role play and it really is my escape...Until my emotions from the outside effect my role playing...and characters...So I escape to you...Don't take that the wrong way but you really take my mind off of the real world and make me feel like I'm my own person and you haven't seen what I looked like until yesterday

And you loved me without even knowing what I looked like and that really makes me feel loved and cared for and it really only wants me to love you more and my love is already so large It's hard to believe that i want to love you more like it just keeps growing and my love will never stop growing for you